31st May 2006 marks the darkest day I will ever know, for this was the day that my beloved DH, Michael, passed away, suddenly without any warning or signs that anything was wrong. He died of a blocked artery which prevented blood getting to his heart and was killed instantly.
It is the most devastating thing I could ever imagine happening to him, me and to our families and friends. Michael was undoubtedly the most kind, gentle, loving, intelligent and fun-loving human I have ever known. I was truly honoured to have known, loved and been married to him, if only for a short while. We would have celebrated our 3rd wedding anniversary on 20th June. I will live life in the eternal glow of his memory and his passing will not make me lose hope ,because he was a total inspiration in everything I do and will continue to do in my life.
I must continue for his sake as I knew he was proud of me and our relationship. I know we will see each other again.....
If tears could build a stairway
and memories were a lane
I would walk right up to heaven
to bring you home again.
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
you were gone before I knew it
and only God knows why.
My heart still aches in sadness
and secret tears still flow
Mike, what it means to lose you
no one will ever know.